been working for these few months ,wonder what to do at end of year . sometime hate myself as i doesnt know what to do when problems arise .. been mentally tired ,doesnt want to think too much . sick and tired of do same thing everyday,even though there are friends who comment the pay are high then what i want ,any one know what i actually wished for .
what you all expected me to be ,i has been what it expected . will there be changes in my life soon ? Hope soon . wonder what kind of friend am i too . smetime i feel being too good ,will get advantage of ,when i bad to reject ,then all kind of nonsense will come . When i need to talk to someone then who shall i talk to when other friend depend on me to talk to when they run into problems ? why god give me some retarded friends who ask me for 1 cent/hr job and also a guy anything also ask me as if i am god like that . PLEASE GOD ,why why am I so depressed then 2 of childhood friends are kinda from MINDS school ??