Recently feel so sick and tired . Sick cause every day do same things over,tired cause mentally,physically tired= studying,working,and sleeping.Emotionally tired-think of ways to dote / care for her ,but i not sure whether in the end will i get hurt anot, i afraid that if i dote her more then i will step in more,will be hurt more when she already got a loved one to dote/care her even though i clearly know i might not be her boy anyway. there will be one day which i want to step out of it,dont care anymore about her or not will step further into. Will she understand how i feels? She wont understand,will she allow me step out- remain as strangers from tat day onwards/stop contacting each other when my temporary things with her is returned to me ?I think might only in this way-i dont think of her safety/well being every now and then.

anyway just treasure the times can ler, 2012 the end of the world might come.